Why does it seem like I traded one kind of bondage for another when I got saved? I am supposed to be free. What’s wrong? After years of struggling with this, I think I have it figured out.
My mind is made up of goal-setting and accomplishment – working for rewards. Thus, it was easy to transfer that to my faith. I began working toward Christian goals. This created a burden, though. I could never do enough. I was always trying to please God…but never could.
There are certain phrases that Christians use that reinforced that in my mind. “Let me introduce our guest preacher tonight, Bro. So-and-so. ‘He has done a great work for God’ in Somewhereville.” I hear that this guy has done a great work and if I want to be like him, I need to work harder. I also hear “for God”. Shouldn’t it be, “God has used Him greatly?” I hear works, not surrender to God. I hear how poorly I am doing.
“If you want God’s blessing on your life, you need to tithe, win souls, do absolutely everything the church offers, etc.” I hear works. “You can’t grow in the Lord unless you do __________.”
I have come to realize that I need to get to know God better first. Since I have been living a misconception for years, I am trying to know God without doing things “for” Him. This is a constant struggle. Every day, I need to meet with God, talk with Him, surrender to Him, and allow Him to work through me. This frees me of the burden of works. The weight is off. He is in charge. I can LIVE FREE!
For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. Romans 8:2.